insecurities

wah...i really dont know what to say. how do i start this. this is the third time i tried writing something to post in me blog. my sis is watching drumline now. dream band eh? hehe..i went for band this morning. passed by the red crescent ppl at the car park this morning. rowena's and the rest just gaped at me. why? not cos i havent met them for DAYS. more cause i cut my hair. and highlighted it. i just walked away...i felt so insecure all of a sudden. but i heard them saying like, "sayang her hair..". whatever. i walked on and valerie jee was in front of me. she toleh to the back...to me. and walked on...then i think some light bulb must have went off in her head and she turned to stare at me. thank god im the "muka tembok" kind and she didnt say anything too. or else i cud have went red. the last time i went really red..as in furiously blushing was last year's IMH concert..when everyone teased me bout this imaginary guy..diyana made him up..she told some ppl that he got my email ad and...dunnolar..some boyfren, girlfren thing..the worst part is he has the same name as the tenor sax guy in greenroad..and i was really scared someone misunderstood and that guy find out. malu~ when feli found out..she said his name so LOUD..to ME..and A LOT of ppl were around and some were laughing at me. so yeah..i dunno what made diyana do that..i dont hold anything against her..but that was the time i really went red. hmm..mebbe u wouldnt get why its so embarassing..but nvm. i alwez get embarassed when ppl tease me bout guys. hehe..anyway..back to the subject..i walked on to the music room and EVERYONE was looking at me. i didnt imagine this. i wished i cud have melted into da ground. crap~

so enuff bout me hair. today we heard the quintet ensemble or sumthing. very nice~ first group was the junior woodwinds. quite interesting. heh. next was da senior woodsinds. that was good!!! xu vin's part was very nice..the tone...and they had this question-answer part. flutes would play..then clarinets answer...so cute!! the brass senior was even better. they played amazing grace. (grace must have been so proud!!) catherine started off with a trumpet solo...very nice..with feeling!! can cry one..hahaz. then the others came in...amanda(tuba), kher lee(trombone), ida(horn), hilda(trumpet). and it sounds great!! hehe..esp amanda. wakakka..that girl memang ngam with da tuba. the song went kinda jazzy at part and it was groovy..yeah!!! haha...a bit sesated at parts (the woodwind seniors were more polished)..but it had a good feel.
so later mr.reggie gave us the piece we were gonna play for IMH concert. boring actually. but i really want to play for this thing so i just have to accept it. i hope this isnt the only thing we're playing. last year we got to play more!! hhehehe..whatever lah.

next monday we have band till 10. then we discuss bout the band board, posters and stuff after that. then i think im going to claire's house and we gonna have fun!! yeah!! been a long time since i went to someone's house. last one was carol's house but that didnt end well. erm..hope this one is better. dunno if i wanna go to watch movie on wed. mebbe i go..but with other ppl. feel so awkward with those ppl..i dont think they mind if i dun go also. hahaha..

the testimonials on frenster is still an issue. i hope they get it over with. fast!! hazikah was not feeling well today. pity her. gertrude's "handle-less" tenor sax (thanks to one ganass junior) case caused her to carry it around in her arms. she has to bring it to IMH tomorow!! sadness. nyamuks are invading me now. thats all from me.