life is getting draggy...i need to have fun!!!

yo. havent blogged in a few days and it feels like forever. nothing much is going on and im craving for a bit, no, a lot of excitement. i still wish im staying at crowne plaza/riverside hotel cos i would really like a warm long bath, followed by watching tv, and then feeling really cold because my mum usually turns up the aircon to a freezing temperature, so i snuggle under the covers of a warm and comfy bed. and my comfort practically ends there cos when im sleeping, well, i dont sleep cos my sis always manages to either push me off the bed, turn over and hantam her whole body on me or treats me like a bolster. i usually have to smack her in the middle of the night and the next morning i wake up really grumpy cos i dont have enuff sleep. hahahhaha..

*sigh* im thankful that nowadays, at least things are moving along a bit...cos i get to go for band and talk and gossip with my juniors and they tell me bout guys they know and i tell them about guys i know and we see st. joe mag together. and its so nice cos we're like one family there...haha.

you know...that haziqah gave me a fright yesterday because she add me in this conversation which involved a lot of people i didnt know. and now i know who they are...mostly form 2 guys and they all know me. and i was chatting with one guy just now, he told me not to tell my mum that i was chatting with him. he said he was scared he kena rotan later if my mum salah faham and think that he kacau me. haha...and yet diyana told me that he's a pervert that hits on any girl he meets. yeah right, he was actually scared of me for goodness sakes. lolz...i am so misunderstood. oh well.

tomorrow, im going for some cfoo thing. ish...have to play some weird piece. and i have to miss the telematch, no!!! i wanna go lah...but then i dont wanna skip that cfoo thing, scared she complain bout me. i dont want her to complain bout me. i dont want to furthur mencemarkan my name cause im often misunderstood. people just dont let me do things sometimes. esp ppl with authority. they seem to have this negative image of me at first sight. when they find out im in a good class or the section leader in band or the ketua darjah, they change the way they treat me. and i kinda hate it. i mean, they dont treat my other frens that way. im probably the only one who notices it. i dont want to give any examples cos i dont want to make it sound like i hate my frens, cos i dont, and im not hungry for "nama" either. its just that i dont like being pushed around and discriminated. i just really hope its not because im a bumiputera. i hate racial stuff. most of my frens are chinese and if u put me with any one of them, most likely a teacher would choose them for a task instead of me. assuming that the teacher doenst know us very well lah. if the teacher knows us and she still chooses my fren, at least i know she has good reasons behind her choice. not that i want to be chosen for everything. i just want to be taken seriously for once. and not treated like a sakai gurl. its so insulting when a person has a shocked expression followed by an amused smile when she/he finds i'm actually capable of doing something well. for goodness sakes, do i really look that stupid?? im not the smartest ass in the world but im not empty-headed or backward either. ish!!

*breathes in* ok. calm down *breathes out*

anyway, tomorow, make sure u watch music-music on TV3. i forgot what time. got jac!!! yeah!! gonna watch that..hihi

on friday, im kinda packed. in the morning, gonna clean music room, and then we have sectional and then im going for the YCS-ISCF thing. hmm...i hope that will be interesting. go there and cuci mata!! haha...i keep going to frenster to add ppl but im alwez confused bout their identity so i end up adding only 1 person out of 5 ppl i see. haha...also keep on seeing guys. lolz...i saw one guy, his name is also kester, but he's not the kester kester. he was topless at a place that looked like a bathroom. lolz!!! the pic was red again. i think its supposed to make him look hot. hahaha..weird guys. ive been trying to look for my tuition mates but not quite succeeding. i dont know the email so i have to go from one person to another to look for my frens. wah...so tiring man!! haha...hey, there's a cute guy in my frenster...go see and try to guess who...haha!! dont salah faham ya...blueks!!

this is crap lah. i promise i'll try to write something more interesting next time. ciao!